The worst thing to wake up to a morning is when you have nothing to look forward to.

It isn't like you do not have anything in your list to do.

in fact there are a lot waiting to be done.

But you feel like escaping from all the responsibilities,

because when people that matter most in your life are turning their back away from you

You don't feel the motivation, the catalyst that makes you excited for a new day every morning.

You just feel like staying in bed whole day long,

two days, three days... as long as it can serve you.

because when you sleep, 

you ..

feel less, 

think less, 

worry less,

but when you wake up to nothingness,

it is still the same.

The same old torn feeling.

I need them to understand me.

And you,

to hold me and

walk through this with me.

i'm afraid i might crumble. 

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WHAT'S WRONG WITH SOME PEOPLE'S MENTALITY.
ENOUGH OF IT AND I AM FED OF IMMATURED STUPID LITTLE GAMES.
YES. ME BEING NICE DOESNT MEAN THAT IM UNAWARE OR UNATTAINED BY THOSE STUPID CHILDISH ACTS
IF THATS WHAT YOU WANT, ARE YOU HAPPY NOW??????????
WHY ARE THERE PEOPLE WHO ARE SO NARROWED AND MISLEADING IN THEIR THINKING
SO SELFISH AND SO HYPOCRITE.

DUCK.
COME SCREW UP MY LIFE LARH.

Lols. The guys trying to imitate each of us in the picture.

wtfatadylarhme.

At Marie's house after her belated birthday dinner ♥

polaroid is love. Thankiu barbie hutan ♥

p.s. abby and jiyang missing. fast fast come back !

orgasm.

T-T

so sexy lorh.

Thank you Sha Kah Ern, my lovely cousin lol

for bearing with the drizzling rain that evening

And accommodated to my last minute photo shoot to redo my frozen assignment : )

More pictures soon? but noise kao kao.

I owe so many people pictures now ehehehehe.

SATURDAY,

#1

a ludicrous scene to take part

#2

an intended picture to surprise 

#3

a task,

many many tasks

and new responsibilities to be brave

even if it is nothing big compared to yours,

but to me it might be something potentially definable,

of the being and achieves.

#4

if some things could just follow our way,

and we could blindfold the traffic lights on the way..

And stop waiting.

#5

we should not have written our names here

but on the walls, 

instilled until the last crumb of brick break.

p.s. Your boxy toes are cute,

they move a lot while u sleep.

太多了嗎？

有時真的很不知所措

 

Life lately has been sweet and tough on me.

But i would conclude it as an overall sweet one, hah! : )

College, 

has been feeling incapable and helpless at times with assignments,

like why i am still so below the standards i will.

There is always this point when i go round and round, 

just revolving around that circle of my limitation that isn't getting any much bigger by time.

and when u look at your current and old work, it is indeed discouraging.

I just have to keep trying harder. bahhhhh.

Besides that, i'm contented with everything else

my family, friends and the barbie hutang

more than lucky to have them ♥

Sorry if i've not been anticipative to you, 

in anything .. like

missing out birthdays wishes, outings, and goes on.

Im getting old and so forgetful, ignorant?

so unaware of my surroundings that i often find myself asking the stupidest questions

so sensitive at the same time that i fuss and cry over the most wee matters

what nuisance, that makes me want to air slap myself 20 times every time it happens. 

heh zzz.

Really, i always still feel myself blessed.

Like YuenCheng keep emphasizing lol.

2009 is sure a good year, she don't want it to come to an end that quick.

Yes, ups and downs.

But we did go through it after all and realized a handful.

my girlsss, i know you all each have problems now,

but again, we all can walk through them like we did right : )

btw, 

im here bcos my tablet and photoshop are failing on me once again, 

Very the tormenting me lorh.

i not kid, it is that frustrating that it slows u down.

wakakakaka.

i dont know.

im happy and frustrated at the same time now again.

IM SO WEIRD .____.

byebye.

very tulan with photoshop 

been crashing for nearly 20times already

it's killing me bahhhhhhhhhhhhh.